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Around mid-late March, I found a lump in my breast. By early May I received a breast cancer diagnosis. The recommendation was surgery right away, but I wanted time to digest the news and feel into what treatment approach felt right for me. I asked for 3 months. It was a small tumor and was caught early, which allowed for that. I wanted to explore wholistic approaches to healing. I spoke to friends & acquaintances who had dealt with a similar diagnosis. I consulted with ND Oncologists, Functional Medicine practitioners, astrologers & intuitives (as is my way!). I found a TCM who had experience with healing cancer without surgery. After several months of wholistic & dietary healing, I decided to go ahead with surgery. I had a successful lumpectomy (partial mastectomy) surgery on August 16th. The pathology report I received last week says “clear margins”, only one cancer type, and no sign of cancer in channels or lymph. So I’m good to go, and feel I’ve landed safely on the other side!
Over the last 3 to 4 months, I've done a lot of reading & research, listened to a lot of podcasts and delved into body centered practices like yoga & qigong with a new lens. I'm more committed than ever to both practicing & sharing ways we can nourish & bolster our own health, no matter what health issue we may be dealing with. There is so much we can do, and it’s important to know how we can take charge of our own health now more than ever with all the changes in health care and the environmental conditions our bodies need to manage. I truly believe our bodies know how to heal! And I have more awe and respect than ever for the wisdom practices of yoga, meditation, qigong, breathwork & pranayama, and somatic based counselling! This experience has empowered me to embrace even more fully my path and my life’s work to share these wisdom ways. Our bodies are truly miraculous, and the more we can practice supporting the body to do it’s work, the more we contribute to our own happiness & well-being. We can so easily be overwhelmed with all the conflict & unrest in the world and wonder what we can do. Taking care of ourselves is THE most effective way to have a positive impact on the collective. Looking after yourself is not selfish - it is sacred and necessary work. It’s also not always easy, but it’s so worth it!
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 3 Part Breath I wrote a post the other day about my first yoga class where we were taught "3-part-breath", or "yogic breathing", and that I learned in that first class that my own breath pattern - my habitual and unconscious breath pattern - was actually the opposite of this and called "reverse breathing". I think of 3-part-breath as our natural breathing pattern. It's natural to us, but often lost as we navigate life and the inevitable stresses, conditioning and trauma of being in a body in this world. If you watch babies, and most young children and animals when they're relaxed, you'll notice that they're whole body moves in sync with the breath, in a coordinated way. The inhalation expands the lower belly, that expansion rises up into the rib cage, the ribs gently flair out & then the chest and collarbones expand. On the exhalation, the belly draws in toward the spine, and the cycle continues. It is a wave-like motion; the breath flows in & expands the abdomen, ribcage & chest, subtly arching the spine, then flows out, and the subtly flexes. With stress and trauma, or social conditioning, we might develop a habit of unconsciously bracing the abdomen, or holding the belly. This compromises the natural flow of our breath, and over time can cause a number of health issues. "Reverse breathing" means that instead of the belly expanding when we breath in, the chest expands, and the abdomen draws in. The good news is, that with time & patience, we can re-train the body to breath better. It is worth the effort, as every system of the body, and our life-force and energy levels are impacted by our way of breathing. A consistent yoga class with a teacher who understands the importance of breath, or a well rounded breathwork practice, starting with a breath assessment with a yoga therapist or qualified breathing specialist is a good way to start the process of re-establishing a natural and beneficial breathing pattern.
 If you practice yoga, it is likely that you're heard some variation of this expression in the classes you attend: "Find ease within the effort of the posture", or "Find a steady, and relaxed seat". These instructions are inspired by Patanjali's Yoga Sutras, verse 2.46, which in Sanskrit is: Sthira sukham asanam. This sutra was the focus of the my Monday morning Hatha yoga class this week.
In class, when sitting in meditation posture, or practicing asana, we are invited to notice where we need to engage muscular effort. To sit in meditation, or to practice a posture correctly, we need to be attentive and alert. We need to engage certain muscles to find length in the spine, and to find alignment in a pose. The mental effort required is to be present, alert and attentive. This physical and mental effort, is "sthira": which can be translated to steady, strong, firm, alert. From a Taoist perspective, which underlies Tai Chi & Qigong and other martial arts practices, we strive to find equanimity, a dynamic play and balancing of the opposite energies of life, the "yin" & the "yang". So the "effort" we apply is the "yang" aspect of our practice. In the west, we tend to overemphasize this part. We strive. We compete. We apply a lot of effort. For many of us, it's out of balance, and we compare ourselves unfavourable with some inner ideal, a picture of how we should look in a posture, or with others. We are hard on ourselves. We look around us and hope that we "measure up" to some imagined standard. There are many examples of an overbalance of "yang" in our culture that we have internalized. But the yogic seers, the ancient Taoists, and many other wisdom traditions and Indigenous cultures knew the importance of balance. Yoga & Taoism both teach us that if we don't balance this physical effort with relaxation, and the mental effort with an attitude of compassion, we are at risk of causing damage. We can cause damage internally through over-exertion & stress to our nervous system. On the other side, of course, if it's all yielding, and relaxing, we just don't bother getting off the couch! So when we sit to meditate, when we practice yoga asana, we can meet the muscular effort with a balancing relaxation to those parts of the body we can relax. We can bring in an attitude of self-acceptance to balance our mental striving. The Sanskrit word "hatha", (hatha is the physical practice of yoga, the asanas, as opposed to Jnana yoga, or Bhakti yoga, or Mantra yoga). Hatha translates as "ha" sun, and "tha", moon. This refers to the balance of masculine aspects — active, hot, sun — and feminine aspects —receptivity, intuition, coolness, moon — within all of us. Hatha yoga is a path toward discovering the dynamic harmony within and between the opposites. So, back to our practice... In class, after we have moved into a tall seat or a posture, mentally scanned the body for good alignment, when we're engaging the appropriate muscles, and applying our focus and attention, we now turn our awareness to notice where we can soften. Where is there unnecessary tension or muscular holding in the body. And just as important, we can check our mental & emotional approach to what we're doing. How are we striving? Are we trying to achieve some outer ideal? Are we comparing ourselves to others? Can we settle back into the felt sense in the body, and soften our approach? Can we soften our mind? Bring in some kindness & compassion, some "sukham" (sweetness, pleasure, comfort). Maybe even brining in a metta phrase, such as "May I be at ease", "May my heart remain open". Our mat can be our training ground for refining our ability to make 'right effort', giving our attention and focus to the task at hand, AND being kind and compassionate. May our practice give us greater freedom to be equanimous in this dynamic dance of finding, losing, and regaining balance in the dynamic play of life. with love, Cedar |
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